Dont you just hate it when you cant sleep? It’s like one minute you’re sleepy as fuck (zombie status) and the next your wide awake. It really is lame way to spend the night, sleepless and half awake. I hate it, especially when I’ve had one of those shitty ass days and all I want to do is knock out and let my imagination take over. oh man how I hate that feeling, lying wide awake in bed just staring into darkness.
At times it can be a bit torturing, but that’s usually when you have something on your mind. Like earlier today, I was lying in bed, about to go sleep, when all of a sudden this thought pops into my head. It was a pretty random, had no real connection to what I did in the previous hours of the day. But regardless it decided to wander into my head, bringing back some memories I thought were lost. I really did not get why she, of all people, popped into my head.
Yes the thought was about a girl, but it was someone who I rarely talk to, which is kind of weird. It was one of my middle school crushes, this short, tiny, oompa loompa looking chick. and I’m thinking to myself, “Why you thinking about her bro? you dont even talk to her anymore” And to tell you the truth I didn’t know why, it just happened, just like every other sleepless night. Its always her or some other girl on my mind and its pretty fucking annoying. Sometimes I just wish I could erase it all, like in that one movie, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (awesome movie BTW).
Then I could finally sleep comfortably and stop thinking about the past. What I’m trying to say is that it would be nice to not have to think of past crushes or the girls that got away, I’m tired of that shit. Forgetting it all would really help me out with this fucking insomnia. But since that kind of technology has yet to be invented I guess I’ll just have to push through it. Man I need me some sleeping pills, or some bud, either one is good lol
JESUS CHRIST MONKEY BALLS!! I really do get sidetracked lol